I looked again at the black book and found
a post for the 14th of June.
I started out with “I make always sense” which was something that Nadja
said to me. Germans tend to get some
parts of speech mixed up. According to
my other notebooks indicated that I did have class this day.
I went on to write that Nadja has this
wonderful way of pouting when she doesn’t get her way. I noted that I knew that things were a lot
less spectacular than they seemed but my understanding of people is rarely
linear. I wrote that I felt a lot safer
about my reactions to her because I had been with her every night. I wrote that my nocturnal dreamland-time with
her sort of negated the chain of action but that there was reason enough to act
more “something” towards her. I wrote
that I thought that if we didn’t know that we could easily be intimate with one
another then we would much more readily treat each other with a lot more
tenderness.
This Notebook Analysis is part of retrospective
of my life taken from emails that I sent or received on the First of the
Month.